i know i should love myself, but honestly i feel i would be happier if i was skinnier. i mean, im have been and still am wicked insecure about wearing a bikini, even a one piece, anything that shows off my body really. i wear baggy clothes or concealing clothes a lot and id like to be happier in my skin but im just not.
Ive wanted to be thinner for years, it even dates back to elementary school when i would see all the cheer leader girls and think i wasnt good enough. midle school was worse, and i went about the wrong way of losing weight during that time through the beginning of high school.
i appreciate that you want me to be happy, but im not really right now in this body. im really happy for anyone that can be happy with their body if its out of the skinny norm, kudos to them!!
i know its kinda weird might to think ill be happier if i was skinnier, but i feel like i will be.